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April 8, 2008

It is my birthday today




I turn fifty three today, normally I would not announce this to the world, but this one has special significance. My father died when he turned fifty three on May 3rd .......... his birthday. He is the only I know of that was born and then died on the same day.

This picture of my Father was taken thirty three years ago he was 48.

For the last year I have thought about this a lot. Will I wake up that morning? Would I follow in his footsteps and have a heart attack? Will I live to see another day?

It is such a weird thing to think about.

I am not afraid of death, I kind of look forward to it because I know who my savior is. It is just the fact that I am the same age as he was. All those many years ago he seemed so much older. Fifty Three is not old.

I miss him, I wish I could have know him better. He was a very private man. Raised in the depression, he grew up facing tough times. A blue collar kind of guy in fact he kind of reminded me of Archie Bunker, he had the same type of facial details, with that sad tired look in his eyes. The eyes tell it all, eyes that have seen and experienced too much in life. Tired eyes, when one has worked too hard for too little.

Born in 1927 he was the third of twelve. The family migrated here from Ireland and the Welsh country. His younger years were tough. I use to hear tidbits sitting around the table during family reunions about how rowdy he and his brothers were. They never expanded on those stories, too many children around with big ears. I do have a picture some where with him and another brother sitting on a ledge at Boys Town USA, yes the real one with Father Flannigan. My brothers and sisters and I were told that they were sent there because the family could no longer afford to feed everyone since it was during the depression. I think maybe if truth were to be told it was because they were just a little bit too rowdy to handle.

So I guess it shouldn’t have surprised me when I found out he once was a semi-pro boxer. I have one picture of him in his boxing trunks, it is the only picture I have showing him with a full head of hair. I only knew him as being bald. I wish I could find that picture.

His life was not all bad nor was his times all tough. He did a good job raising a family in the middle of a wheat field in eastern Washington. Even though there was not a lot of money we did not lack and there were many good times. He was a hard working Irish man, with a love for the Boy Scouts. I will always have wonderful memories of our family vacations on the Oregon Coast. And I was lucky enough to have him still here to walk me down the isle. I wish I could have known him better.


So here I am Fifty Three, the same age as he was when he died. I miss him.

All I know is the Good Lord is not done with me yet because he allowed me to wake up this morning..................Halleluiah!


So I will sit with my morning coffee, thanking my God that He sustains me. Watching the little birdies feed outside my patio door. (There is something very peaceful about this.) Then I have the great privilege of taking my daughter who is 7 months pregnant to her ultra sound, to be able to see the amazing gift of life inside her, my second granddaughter.


So I celebrate my life today.



I am blessed with three lovely grown children all finding there way in the world. My first granddaughter never ceases to make me laugh who truly is the joy of my life, and I am surrounded by wonderful group of friends. Life can’t get much better than this.

My times are in His hands!

What an amazing day this already is!!

8 comments:

Mima said...

It sounds as if you have a lovely life full of family which is wonderful. I think that even if it is morbid, sometimes these things go through our heads, and it is better to let them out than keep them in, but it has obviously all turned out OK which is brilliant news. Your father sounds like an amazing man, I can understand you wanting more time with him.

Anonymous said...

This is perhaps the happiest photo ever taken of Dad. What we don't see in this picture is that he had you holding onto one arm. You were surrounded by roses, family, friends, and a brief and spectacular Oregon sunshine as you and he walked down The isle. He was so happy and proud that day. And there is no doubt that he would be even more proud of you on this day. As am I to call you my Sister.
JFJ

Jules~ said...

Happy birthday my sweet and wonderful friend! Celebrating you is a treasure and priviledge. Celebrating life is equally as wonderful and I am glad you have wonderful things in store for you today with your family. The perfect git: being able to see that sweet one on the ultrasound screen and hear a glorious heart beat.

It is so interesting where our thoughts can go. Hubby had those same kinds of thoughts when he turned 40. His dad had a heart attack on his birthday and hubby was convinced that he would do the same.

It sounds like your dad was an amazing man. I am glad you have the memories that you have.

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Kelly! Your words continue the weaving of a great tapestry of family, love, life and connectedness to Spirit. It is a beautiful expression embracing the fullness of life. Thank you for sharing your heart. Much joy to you on this 1st day of your 53rd year. May all the days following bring you increasing joy, love and reward. Love, Lane

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Kelly! We don't know each other but such is the nature of the blog. I've been enjoying your writing for awhile and Monday I decided to leave a post, but couldn't seem to send it so that it posted. Hopefully this attempt will succeed.

Since this is the 9th, it seems you have time before you--hope you'll keep writing. Your tribute to your Dad is a lovely posting. Happy Birthday. BJ

Jeff B said...

Happy Birthday!

For the reason you mentionedI'm sure you're glad this one is behind you.

Thanks for sharring a part of your past. Very nice post.

kelly ann said...

Mima,yes my dad was just a hard working guy. And I do miss him, hang in there with the not smoking.


JFJ, It is nice to know I can still surprise you. I wish you lived closer. I hope I learn to write as well as you.

Lane, what a wonderful surprise that you stopped by. I am blessed.

BJ, thank-you also for stopping by. This was a bittersweet post. But I am glad I did it. And thanks for your kind remarks.

Jeff, YES it is nice to live another day. I slept very well
that night.

And my dear friend Jules, thank-you for opening this door for me.
As I have said before you make me a want to be a better person.

Mima said...

Thanks for stopping by and thinking of me, I have been doing really well over the last few days with no cigs at all!